It’s amazing how a disease can change your entire outlook on life. Even though I have an unwanted tenant growing inside of me, I have never felt more alive than I do now. I appreciate things that I didn’t appreciate before and I see things entirely differently (even if that means I can’t tell the difference between 6 and 9 :P) For example, Sarah has been wanting to sit in my lap at meals now and while that definitely wouldn’t fly any other time, right now having her nuzzled up in my lap with her sweet curls within kissing distance doesn’t seem so bad. After all, she won’t want to sit in my lap forever.
We had always said that we would wait until Sarah was 4 or 5 until we took her to Disney. But we also didn’t plan on me getting grade IV brain cancer either so we work with what we have and roll with the punches. The discovery of my tenant has really ignited a fire inside of me. Definitely spiritually, but a desire to do even more. I have always been a woman of adventure but life is too short to wait for adventures! You aren’t guaranteed a certain amount of time here on earth so why wait?! With this fire I decided Sunday that I wanted to go to Disney World with Sarah on Monday and anyone that knows me knows that when I say I want to do something, I make it happen. The truth is, even though I know in my heart I am going to beat this, I also know that I don’t want to risk not being the one to take her for the first time. So with the help of Michael and his parents, we packed up and went on Monday! There was one glitch in my wanting to do Disney right now and that is my energy, or lack there of. I get worn out so quickly now, and although I had this grand idea of a last minute trip to Disney, how on earth was I going to survive all day long?? The solution? A wheelchair. Ugh, I hated the idea so much. I am fully capable of walking. But I knew (as well as everyone else) that there was no way I would last. I mean seriously, we were 10 minutes in the park and my hands were shaking. So I had to put my pride aside and accept the help. And you know what? It was such a blessing. We were at the park for over 8 hours and I got the best snuggles from Sarah because she rode on my lap all around the park. As much as I hate asking for help, I am so thankful for the help we have had. Our families and friends are absolutely incredible.
Honestly, I didn’t think she was going to be into it. She is so hit or miss with rides and well, she hated Santa, so why would she like the Disney characters?! Boy was I wrong. I have never seen so much joy on her face. Honestly, it was one of my favorite days together as a family. I felt so genuinely happy and appreciated every moment and every smile so deeply. When she ran into Minnie’s arms and kissed her I about cried. I am so glad that the Lord pushed us to go. The smiles and joy I saw in Sarah gave me a boost I needed as we start this journey. She lit my fire to fight even harder. We rode so many rides, including her very first roller coaster, which was bumpy and slow according to Sarah. We met all the Disney characters and she loved it so much. Truly it was a day I will never forget.
Life is too short. Go on your dream vacation NOW and eat ice cream for dinner.