Despite some last minute changes, today was a good day. I was supposed to begin immunotherapy today but was unable to because my liver levels weren’t where they needed to be to start it. The upside to this discovery is that I get a nice break from everything. It’s been a week and a half since I’ve worn optune! I have to wait for my wound to heal before I can jump back on the optune train. Because of this small break, my hair has started growing back, but it’s funny because it’s growing straight up. It’s pretty comical.
So instead of beginning immunotherapy I began my new chemo with the port they put in my brain last week. It’s not supposed to hurt but there was a bit of pressure, probably because I just had it put in last week. It’s weird having chemo distributed directly to my brain and spine. I debated sharing so if you have a weak stomach, scroll past this next photo. But it shows my nurse doing it. I kind of like learning about this stuff (not in this way obviously).
Michael and I experienced some great God moments today, so great that I’m writing about it at 2 am. While driving home from our appointments today, feeling exhausted and somewhat defeated (had some new ailments pop up-nothing serious), Michael told me to look up because there was a rainbow. A beam of hope. He knows when I need it. Right after that I noticed some really amazing “Jesus clouds.” That’s what I call the clouds that have the heavenly looking beams that shine through. They are so beautiful and my mom even spotted some angels in the clouds in the picture. You need to zoom in but I definitely see it in the upper left. A cherub.
My favorite moment today came at bedtime. I made a goal board for myself a week ago and as I passed it tonight I read the one that said “read the Bible daily.” After reading it, I thought to myself “ugh, it’s already late, I don’t have time..” I started to get into bed and on the night stand right next to me was my bible. I could hear a voice saying “Just open it.” So I did. I opened it to a random page, pointed and just started reading. This is where I pointed and what it read:
“Lord my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me.” Psalm 30:2
God is so present in this! In everything. I’m just so mad at myself that I wasn’t listening this well before. Why didn’t I listen like this before? Don’t ignore those voices you think you hear. It’s angels, saints, loved ones, God…if you listen, you WILL hear him. Just listen.