Mother’s day is Sunday, and to be frank, I’m not looking forward to it. I still plan on calling my mom and having Sarah talk to her grandmothers, but without Stephanie this year, the mother of my child, I know this Mother’s day is going to be different. It’s going to be difficult, full of… Continue reading A Different Kind of Mother’s Day
Something I’ve struggled a lot with lately is being happy. I read a while back that as a widow/widower, you have to give yourself permission to be happy. I remember thinking that was the dumbest idea, because clearly I wanted to be happy, I just couldn’t be right then. Well as time’s gone on, I… Continue reading “we can have so much taken from us, but our joy is a choice”
Today marks one year since Stephanie started this blog. So much has changed in the last year, and a lot of that was because of this blog. This is another story about how the blog will have a lifelong affect on me and I hope so many others. Everyone who knew Stephanie knew that music… Continue reading “Trust in Him – Stephanie’s Song”
January 31, 2017. I was working late that week, so I was home in morning. It was just another day in life, nothing super odd. Stephanie had a doctor’s appointment that morning, but it wasn’t something that caught my attention. She came home, we all had lunch together, and we put Sarah down for a… Continue reading The Day Everything Changed…
Everything happens for a reason. It’s a quote I’ve heard a million times, and one I’ve repeated quite often. It’s something I’ve always believed, and why not? If God is all-powerful and all-knowing, and He has a master plan for the world, then why wouldn’t it? Well, now I’m not so sure. Today marks four… Continue reading Everything Happens for a Reason… or does it?
As I was watching the new Star Wars movie last night, this quote stuck with me more than anything else in the movie. Three months ago, Stephanie left this world, and while at times it’s been difficult to feel her presence, there have been plenty of signs and reminders that while her body is gone,… Continue reading “No one’s really ever gone…”
It’s been over 6 weeks now since I last heard Stephanie’s heartbeat, held her hand, gave her a kiss, or looked into her beautiful and loving eyes. Those 6 weeks have been excruciating and challenging in more ways than I could ever describe, and so I won’t even try. I was very hesitant to write… Continue reading She lives in you, she lives in me…